Do you know the reason I don't drink or take drugs? To put it simply, I know I'd become an addict; therefore, I must not even go down that road. My drug of choice is food for the simple fact that you can't get around not eating. You can live without drinking alcohol, doing drugs, gambling, etc. You can't live without eating, so if you're going to pick something to binge on, food makes the most sense, right?
Why do you think I've never taken Percocet or Valium? I know I'd become an addict within a week. I'd be one of those people who is at the doctor every week, complaining about chronic pain so I can get another week's supply of a drug.
Why do you think I don't let myself play computer games? I'd be a complete mess, playing hooky from work to get to the next level of whatever game I'm playing.
Why do you think I don't gamble? I'd be the person you'd have to drag kicking and screaming out of the casino.
Why do you think I don't drink alcohol? Because I'd have brown paper bags full of alcohol in my desk until I got fired.
See, binging on food at 3am is actually the lesser of many of the evils I could partake in. That's how I justify it to myself. I'm kind of proud because I showed considerable restraint today. It's reminiscent of the time I saw those Lofthouse cookies covered in frosting and sprinkles for $1, and I refused to let myself buy even just one. A small bit of progress, yet a long road ahead.
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