Sunday, March 29, 2015

Monday, March 23, 2015

Greetings from Yakima

I'm in Yakima right now for work. Sitting in a hotel that actually is right on the river. Last night my room was so hot that I opened the sliding glass door and heard the rush of the river all night long. Tonight it's rather cold, and i closed the  sliding glass door. The adjoining room's tv drowns out the river noises tonight.

My time here has been rather intense. A quiet 3 hour drive over here, though, which was nice. I have taken a couple of walks by myself. When so many people ordinarily want things from me, I find it nice to have time to myself, even if it's merely sneaking away to take a walk. There's not nearly enough alone time anymore.  I know at some point I will crave the companionship I am right now forced to have, but right now at this point in my life I am exhausted by everyone's neediness.

I can't wait for this dang wedding to be over. Every dang week it's something. I can't wait to finally cross it off in its entirety. This weekend is the bachelorette party. Guess who has to make the erotic cake? I'm dreading the actual party because drunk women going to male  strip shows in the city just isn't my thing. I'm such a curmudgeon. Buff guys with baby oil don't do anything for me. I am truly attracted to a guy's intelligence and thoughts, and I don't understand how you can have a substantive conversation at a noisy bar. Yes, I'm a curmudgeon.

Intellectually I know that I will miss these experiences when I'm older. When I have more time than things to do, I'll reminisce over these times when I wish I could replicate myself. For now, though, I'm tired and feel like I don't do justice to any of the things I'm responsible for. I see every request, whether it be a party, a work invitation or even an email as One. More. Thing.

I was hoping to use this work event as a pseudo vacation. Looks like it's not working. :/

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Anniversary and Weddings

Today is my 15th wedding anniversary. It seems strange to me that it's been that long. I can remember it like it was yesterday. In a blink of an eye 15 years have passed. I also have that same feeling about graduating high school (20 years this year...gulp) and college (if I use my second graduation, 17 years). Maybe it's because I've worked in the same place for the last 15 years (and lived in only two houses) that it's felt like I've been stuck in time. But I haven't. Time has moved on, actually quite expediently.

What's interesting is that my good friend is getting married in 6 weeks. Being a bridesmaid I'm going through all that wedding "stuff" all over again. I don't miss it. I didn't enjoy wedding preparations the first go around, and experiencing it this time again (even if it's vicariously) isn't all that exciting either. The other weddings I've been a part of have been very low-key.

Here are some of the bridesmaid duties:
Dress selection
Dress fittings
Organizing Shower 1
Shower 1
Organizing Shower 2
Shower 2
Accompanying bride on wedding chores
Bachelorette party (I'm really, really dreading that in a few weeks--guess who gets to make a dirty cake?)
Rehearsal dinner
The 18 hour ordeal that is the wedding - prep, calming bride, trying not to trip in the long dress/high heels combo, pictures, ceremony, reception
I'm probably supposed to come up with a speech.

This is what I learned from my wedding: Elope.

This is what I am re-learning from this experience: Elope.

Just elope.