Tuesday, April 29, 2014

End of April

I'm here.

It's been awhile, I know. I have stuff to say even. I feel that I walk a fine line here with my identity, and so often I want to word vomit, but then I realize how easily I can be found out if I do.

I really like to word vomit; hence, why I like to blog.

Let's work up to the more interesting stuff. This month was an okay month health/exercise-wise. I had gained 2 pounds in March, and I lost those 2 pounds in April. My BMI is acceptable. I've bought skinny work pants. I'm in my smaller jeans. I'd like to get into the little denim shorts I wore in 8th grade--they don't quite button,  but, let's not be greedy when I can fit into the stuff I wore in 9th grade. (Just to be clear, I was never svelte, even in 8th grade.)

I'm not particularly religious. I was raised Catholic, but I would say that I was never really into it. I was the kid who was forced to go to mass every week and who was forced to go to religious education one day a week for a few hours. I was resigned to the fact that I had to go, but for the most part I'd tune out both mass and religious education and instead think about other things. I'm not a huge fan of organized religion, disagree with some of the church's stances, but yet I believe in God and a supreme being. When I see the religious fanatics on Facebook who post Bible quotes and attribute God to all the bad/good things in their lives, I simultaneously roll my eyes and envy the faith they have in religion. I wish my faith was that powerful.

I will be back. Yes, I know I keep saying that. This blog is important to me. I love to go back and read what I wrote in moments in time, and if I don't write, then I don't have anything to memorialize the moments as they zip by...they seem to be going by faster as time goes on.


jojo cucina cucina said...

This is your blog Bethany?

I feel exactly the same way about religion. I too was raised Catholic and went to Catechism and was confirmed and all that.

There is an amazing book about growing up Catholic. It's a memoir called Chasing Grace. Have you read it? if not i'll bring it to you. It's hilarious.

jojo cucina cucina said...

wow, this is so complicated to post a comment!

jojo cucina cucina said...

But it worked!!! I wasn't sure it would!

B said...

It's me, Jo! Sorry if it's complicated now. Those spammers made me crank it up a notch!

jojo cucina cucina said...

The squiggley captcha is sometimes impossible to read! I looked through many of your blog posts and made a list of stuff that makes me think we are twins:

1. OCD issues - me too! (I blog about them too)
2. Into the Wild movie (i read the book twice.)
3. libraries
4. Xanax (wish it was a vitamin and i could take it every day!) I only take it when i fly.
5. Allergies. (on shot for 34 years, just quit them last August. So far, so good.)
6. Jon & Kate! hahaha. i got hooked on one of their dumb marathons early on went he kids were little and then totally hated it after getting sick of Jon's passive aggression and her bitchiness and control issue. Plus i didn't like that one oldest daughter Maggie? can't remember their names anymore.
7. Childhood survivor.

Like you i love going back in time and reading old blog posts and comments from folks. I am quite often surprised by how fast the time goes by when i read something from 2009 that seemed like only a couple of years ago!

B said...

We definitely have a lot in common!

- As much as I joke about Xanax, I've never yet had enough courage to get a prescription. I think I would like it too much!

- Kate Gosselin irritates me almost as much as Rush Limbaugh.

We have missed a good 5 years of being blog buddies!

jojo cucina cucina said...

Xanax makes a Type A person like myself more laid back and i liked that a lot. Not sure i would want to be laid back EVERY DAY though. I like being productive. But it does help me fly. And once when my luggage was lost and we were the last ones standing by the baggage claim i didn't even care when we found out why.